Long week and God's Grace

It has been a long week for me. It seems that the homeschool schedule just kicked up a notch and is taking all day long, or maybe it is that Elijah is starting to be a little human wrecking ball in the home leaving a trail of chewed up crayons and crumpled papers in his wake! Or maybe it is hard to leave vacation mode and switch into school gear again. I also have a sinus infection, I think. Making me alot more tired than normal. All that said, it is so easy for me to dwell here, in all the work I have to do, and the things that I never seem to get to like classical music and art lessons or preschool work for Rachael. I can feel so overwhelmed and like a failure. And that often leads to lots of sin on my part. Impatience, anger and not trusting in God's good plan. I really have been so blessed with a healthy, whole family and every good thing.
I dont have to look far to see true suffering and hardship, so I do need to keep all my "trials" in perspective, they don't even register on the scale of hardshipness, if there is one!

But I recently wrote in my journal one morning the words to this worship song:

Your Grace-by Andy Park

Your Grace opens the way That I might draw near to you, with my heart full of faith.

Your Grace is all undeserved. Though there are times I fail, Still you are with me.

Your Grace, lightens my load, gives me the strength I need to keep walking this road.

Your grace is ALL that I need. Though I am weak Your Grace is Mighty within me!

chorus-

Your amazing Grace is perfectly free. Day by day your grace empowering me

To please you in all things, to walk in your ways

Completely forgiven-And its all by your grace

Bridge-

I want to walk in a manner that's worthy of the calling you've given to me!

I want to walk in a manner that's worthy of the Gospel

This song has been, by God's grace, playing in the radio of my mind. It is my prayer on days like these, which I have many of, that I would not be self sufficient but rely wholly on my savior for the grace to walk out this calling of motherhood, homeschooling teacher, wife and above all daughter of the Lord in a pleasing and God glorifying way. God is all that I need. Now a nice nap would help and Joel bringing home dinner from the take out at the supermarket, like I mean to ask him to when he calls from work are defidently blessings, but God's grace is sufficient for me, HIS power is made perfect in my weakness. Thank you Jesus. Your grace will carry me thru this small trial of being tired and having lots to do, and your grace will get me thru the larger trials that are promised me in your word. You're always faithful.

I feel better already.